Sunday, July 30, 2006
Saturday:
Was not bad too! had to come so early in the morn. But luckily sum's dad fetch us from je. And what cheered me up for the day was that early in the morn, when I dropped off at je, the first crescentian I saw was...Hanizah! Hahah! She so sleek. Yumsyums.
Then in the car they were trying to fix their scarf so funny can.
Reached sch a bit early then went to student lounge for practice.
Had practice and all till our performance at 10 plus.
Went arnd a bit and all. Saw sum and dada and went with them. heh. Did a few stuff. And I was so angry that stupid balloon woman! Me, bern and has queue up for an hour then at one (it wasnt at one ok, it was five mins earlier) the woman just say 'CLOSED!' and happily pack up and leave and we were the unlucky ones as we were queuing up behind the girls who got the last balloon. =/ unfair screw that bitch la! So irritating I wanna kill her!
i wanna get 2, one for me and one for honeybun but yea. so sad la =(
Anyways, the mass dance thing was so nicee! Ahahh.
Then I went to put henna on my hand. Damn. Paid 2.50 for just the words 4s2, farrah, Hanizah, Lydia and sam. And its like so ugly somemore!
In the end I bought the whole thing itself and ask sum to help me do. Ahah.
Its nicer.
Oh. and I totally blow up at this bitch ok just now I cant take her anymore.
Call herself a councilor. Whatever la she.
Last time when me and sum wanted to watch p.o.c, she was like 'no, you cant go wearing your sch uniform' eh like hello? I always do that la pls. and kartinie even told us its ok as long as you don't tarnish our sch name or tuck out our shirt or whatever. She's sucha loser man. Hate her. And she keep insisting and she was being so sarcastic and thinks she's always right. And she said like 'then if you get caught don't blame me for not warning you' bitch. Hate her. She thinks she's so good. And she's always, and I really mean ALWAYS, suck up to the senior councilors. Wanna give 'good impression' like that la. Whatever its like so obvious la when with us (or classmates) and in front of the the senior or other councilors, she act so damn differently I tell you. So not like her.
Then in front of the teachers too.
Im not bad mouthing her but its true you don't know the other side of her.
She's not even fit to be a councilor! Even anybody in our class is better!
and she don't even know that she's labeled the REJECT OF THE CLASS. How stupid.
She doesn't realize that nobody likes her attitude, even sum, cause sum also cannot tolerate her at times even after being friends for so long.
And just now, sum was like helping me to put on the henna la then she was like 'oh! you can get demerited for using that henna leh cause it falls under accessories' like whatever!! So lame can she. She keeps insisting too ok. The school rules doesn't even state that and whats wrong with putting henna? Aneeqa does that all the time and nobody even bothered when there are spot checks. Also, if the school doesn't allow it, why did they even agree to the idea of the henna painting by the np girls in the first place? See how dumb that girl is. Hate her to the core. I cant stand her anymore (it rhymes btw I just realized). Also, she wears her socks quite low too. urgh, so much for 'following the sch rules'
And she's always chatting with this 45 yr old guy, which apparently lives in California, has a wife and two children around her age. She damn stupid pls.
She really think the guy loves her ah. And she so stupid ok. She did this presentation thing for him and spent weeks and most of her time about it, then found out recently that 'the guy loves her no more' whatever pls! she's so damn dense I never met anyone as stupid as her. He’s just using her like isnt that obvious. Ok. I really had enough of talking bout her alr. I totally give up. Continuation...
Then from the hall there (when sum was helping me to put on the henna), I just stormed out and started cursing zan. Bitch. Her name makes me so pissed. Then came back I like totally ignored her and she was like trying to be nice to me and all and I just said straight to the point. She then was like trying to be so nice and all. Whatever. Hate her so much man.
Oh. and I didn't know Hannah can sing so well! Three cheers for her! =)))
Ok. Then the rest of the day in sch, very lazy wanna elaborate. Had um. Lunch cum dinner at tiong's long john's. again, we saw sab and the np girls. Hah. Like so weird wherever we go see them one. And we took neoprints so funny can! Hee. Ok. And just now my cousins and all came.
Im tired alr, ahah.
Nights. =)))
xHANISAHx
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3:33 AM
Friday:
It has been a totally great day. And I mean it. (I don't mean GREAT as in a sarcastic way)
Day started out with no mass run! Woohoo! And gary tan gave this long long speech (or rather, some really random stuff) for so long.
Then sci was ok. I didn't get caught for not bringing my jotter book again. Heh. Lucky ah.
Mly was horrid. Kartinie was bad mooding ok.
Knew smth was wrong since the start of the lesson and she kept bombarding people who was talking with a lot lot of questions on the compre. And she didn't even smile or anth.
Then when lesson ended, she like totally scolded us like hell la.
Cause what, we bang the chairs in instead of pushing it in softly.
Then she rake up everything and all. And she like yelled at us for so long.
Sigh. What to do la.
Recess was ok la cause I think Hanizah didn't come. Yea.
Cme did this job survey thing or whatever it is.
So fun! Ok I forgot what characteristics that one.
But I rmb some jobs they say which is suitable for me!
I rmb some, fashion designer and some other stuff designer, architect, teacher for the arts, BARTENDER! Lol so fun I get the fun fun jobs.
But one job I really dislike, lawyer. Like eew. Know you can make big bucks but yea. Just dislike lawyers.
Then el did like o level compre ok! Actually not hard la but not used to the format.
Mly agn got back ct papers. I screwed so badly ok I can cry. ='(
Then after sch, released at one and me, siti, sathiya and aliffah went to plaza sing to eat lunch and walk arnd while waiting for hanna banana to go home, put down bag and eat first.
Met sab and the np girls at bk =)
Then sathiya and aliffah left at 3 and we waited for that banana woman to come.
Then the 3 of us were like walking around aimlessly in circles. And the flowers outside the bookstore so dammit pretty! I want! Haha. and siti and hanna actually took the net thing and put it around their wrists/hands =/
Then at arnd 4.30 set off for buona vista for the ymc rehearsal.
Met nas and rab and went to the csc together. Oh stopped by this shop and I got my baby biscuits its so yummy and addictive I bought the whole thing. =)
Then we were the first ones to reach there and got this small sized shirt which is quite big to say for a small size.
And then came along all the other crescentians.
14 of us altogether. Then had to eat a bit first and it was so hard for me to eat cause I was like laughing so hard throughout the whole time. Like siti and her balls, nita and her Stamford raffles and fad with the little quiet guy sitting in front of them, ahah so damn hilarious can.
Then rehearsal can be considered fun too! =)
Ok. Only like a few cedarians came, a bunch of Anderson girls, irmelia was the only rafflesian, a few ri guys and some of the seniors.
It was a nice one. Rehearsal, we laughed a lot esp that stupid silly sakinah!
She and her craziness until we all got addicted.
And she claims the curtain vapour backstage MUST be the reason why we were like so high! Hahaha,
Then practice time was so funny. Found out the guy's 'few seconds' means 'few minutes' and we started timing. Then they said we needed to improve on our presentation, so we started being so dramatic and its like so funny! Hahaha.
And got a lot of funny funny stuff that happened also too long wanna mention and my post too long alr. So, after that dad fetched me and the car was like so packed cause got my aunt, grandma and grandpa in it. and had to send all of them so I slept in the car.
By the time I reached home, it was alr ten plus and I felt so dizzy and feel like puking la pls.
Ok. That's the end of my wonderful day. =)))
Like it cause well, its enjoyable. =))))))))
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3:27 AM
Thursday:
It was ok too. had Tuesday's timetable. And I don’t rmb anything we did during schtime at all. Just rmb that after sch, had rehearsal again.
Rehearsals can be nice if,
1.) you are not tired after a whole day of schooling (which is impossible)
2.) instructors (asmah and aisyah) are in a SUPER good mood
3.) everyone concentrates, play properly and stretch and does not miss out on notes. =)
ok. Ohoh! And I forgot to say, in the middle of practice, my aunt call, saying that my mum got admitted into the hospital. I was like so happy la! Haha. don't get it wrong. Im not happy bout the fact that my mum
was sick la but its like I get all the freedom I want! Yay! And my dad really doesn't care bout anything, since he comes home late usually. =)
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3:22 AM
Wednesday
I almost forgot what we did but rmb after thinking so much.
Had pbl assessment the whole day! Was like so great la got no lessons.
Well, pbl presentation for my grp went on perfectly. I was so happy. =)
Cause we have received positive comments from the people and it went on smoothly, compared to last yr. and im thankful to my grp for the tremendous effort made and for being able to ans all the questions very well! =)))
Anyways, had csp after sch as usual and it was not so bad la just that I was so tired from the previous two days of non-stop rehearsal. I rmb cause the moment I got home, bathed, pack bag (w/o doing hmwk) and just sleep! Heh.
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3:21 AM
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Today had been full of ups and downs.
Saw someone I really really like at je (you-know-who) and that's good.
Had no mass run, super good.
But right after it was announced, I saw smth bad. Ok maybe not that bad but I just got a look and I was like on the verge of crying and bawling out loud. So heart-breaking and disheartening la. You know how much those little things about you-know-what affects me. Thank god Sum was there.
Ohoh. And deardear (frh insists I call her this) got 'hit' by this teacher during assembly cause she kept talking! Haha. you should see everything esp her reaction! I went like gaga over it pls. some more I was staring and not taking my eyes off her even once like I haven't seen her for a decade. Haha.
Then had um. Mly, el, math and hist. did nth much, el got my marks back. Was damn bad I got a b4. =( that's baddd.
Recess was oops. Cause I was cursing the 3 ahminahs for cutting in the queue.
And at the drink stall, carol, kai xian and Amanda were like queuing in front of me la. (the queue was damn long ok) Then I started cursing 'stupid idiotic minahs from 4s2!' to Sum and then carol turned and was like 'huh? What?' cause apparently she thought I was talking to her or smth. Pffffttt. And I went like 'oh nothing nothing =)'. I mean like I forgot the fact that they are from the same class too. and Sum managed to calm me down. =) haha. I think its funny.
Then got back hist test marks. Was quite ok. Didn't exceed my expectation, met just nice with it. at least its an A. =)
Then math, I kept sleeping and waking and sleeping and waking and its so irritating cause I wasn't able to stay awake at all. And in between all those, god I had sooo many dreams la. Some more I was sitting right in front and there were a few times when I noticed choy looking/glimpsing at me when I suddenly awoke. How nice right he didn't wake me up from my wonderful sleep, except for the noisy irritating sec1s outside.
Then after sch, was released early and had lunch, gave frh snr the pen to read the hnz's letter. So funny. They meddle meddle with it also dunno how to use it. haha.
Changed into the shirt and jeans and I feel like so awkward. Anyways, the practice and rehearsal was damn long and tiring! Ended at nearly 5.30 then so tired and just went home in the shirt and jeans! Hah.
-more random thoughts-
I don't know why these kind of little petty stuff worry me A LOT.
It so gahh!! Cause you will get this worried and uneasy feeling inside of you.
And you know smth will happen. But nothing happens, and as each day get by, the feeling gets worse. Ever felt it before?
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6:50 AM
Monday:
Had lit for first period, Mr. m didn't collect our hmwk! Gahh
Then el, did presentation, art, I didn't do my work. Goh asked me why and I gave her a super lame excuse. =/
Then I started doing on my design and she said it was good, because my designs are very detailed, BUT that's the prob because I do too many designs for half a design and I ran out of ideas alr. Like how stupid, so I don't know how to continue with it alr. Damn.
Anyways, lit test was omg!! So hard can! Its so ---. (No comments)
But the highlight for today was the !@#$% talk I had with David. I mean its like so ---. (Also no comments)
I told him, that I like my senior.
And he went like. Huh, why, he very handsome ah.
And I told him, no, im in crescent girls' school, remember?
And he asked, are you a les?
I said no, I dunno actually but I don't think so. Great obsession and admiration, eye candy too much I guess.
And he got upset.
Actually I dunno because he seems indifferent but yeah. I dunno why he did (or maybe not) get upset either.
And we never contacted each other again. The end. How nice =/
I know sounds lame cause it has been only two days but still. Its like so awkward.
Im feeling so splitter splatter. Ok. I don't even know whats that supp to mean. Gahhh!!!
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6:35 AM
Saturday, July 22, 2006
my mood to blog about the wonderful yest was CRUSHED just like that
well, decided to do a short one
yest,
went to dxo. for the concert thing.
the place was not bad but a bit too small and its like crowded.
but its a good place to slack la. =)
left halfway to go out, window-shop and eat
then came in again, since i have like 2 extra tix with me
the starting was OK.
but the ending that part was great
damn. shouldnt have left first then come back again, and miss out on all the fun
wells, reached home around midnight and was very tired. the end.
anyways, shall upload the pic we took of aliffah in the pretty hat next time.
its in my phone, very lazy wanna transfer now. she looks very adorable though! x)
this is for you (dear dear)~
'its not like i always want to fight with you over all these small matters
do you think i like it also?
it hurts dont you know
i hate it when this kinda things happen
i hate it everytime we have misunderstandings and fights
i hate it when we are not able to understand each other at times like this
i hate the fact that im just standing here
i hate the way i get so uptight over everything
to be honest, i hate the way you lead your own life
damn.
what can i do tell me
it hurts so much to like you too much
i know its bad, cause i have such high expectations of you,
i guess even higher than anyone else
im trying too hard to make you perfect
but i have no rights to, so tell me, what should i do
dont leave me strayed here.
cause you know if you leave, its like as if i've lost my legs
i always think of you when im sad or talk to you about it and i become happy
but now that i dont have you, what am i to do?
i hate it whenever i cry over you
and i cant help it
its not like i want to
damn it, these tears that i've wasted over someone i know just a year ago, could've filled up a river
so, i just want you to know
that no matter what happens, im ready to sacrifice anything
and im ready to forgive even if im not in the wrong
im sorry but i dont know how im supp to put everything into words
and what should i do with you lollipop now?
crush it and throw it away?
or take it and bang it on your head till it breaks so as to knock some sense into you?
tell me which one you prefer'
ok. maybe today's post is not so short after all.
but i honestly mean whatever i just said
can you hear me hanizah?
and i dunno if whatever i said makes sense cause now, i cant see, im tearing
and my mind is in a confused state.
i'd better go now
bye
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11:48 PM
Friday, July 21, 2006
Drinking mud shot like there's no better drink
Spending money like no there's no tomorrow
Enjoying herself like the world's going to end
Smoking along like she couldn't fit in
The enjoyment of her teenage life.
Her inside shouting like she's tortured
Her sins adding like a huge mountain
The negative influence like a virus
Acting so foolish like a little kid
Her heart is bleeding.
Doing all the dirty pranks when no one is watching
Retaliated back when scolded by teachers
Doing the wrong things when being told the right ones
Slacking a lot when the exams are just round the corner
That's her life in school.
Disastrous grades when she didn't study
Sense of guilt when being rude
Wanting to fit in when she's left out
Feeling of insecurity when being controlled
She needs a rope to hang on to.
Shouting her lungs out with enjoyment
Doing whatever she wants with no care
Acting so tough and strong with no fears
Going against all laws with no concern
The extent of her extreme behavior
Releasing her stress with hidden ways
Following others blindly with no sense
Helpless and torn inside with no one to help
Major influence with big bad boys
There's nothing she can do
Many unsightly piercing on her
An expression of hatred always on her face
Wearing low jeans on her waist
With long nails on her fingers
That's just her style
But pain she went through to get the piercing
The sadness she went through because of everything
The ache she went through when being ignored
The consequences she went through to pay back for it all
All because of a little mistake that she made.
.
.
.
She doesn't want to turn back
No, she's happy this way
Its self confidence that she lack
This is how she wanna stay.
She needs something to cling on to
To strengthen her faith and hope
All she needs is someone like you
To give her that guiding rope
Now can you hear my call
Im begging you inside my heart
You've only encountered a fall
Its not too late to make a new start
I've dropped on my knees
and tears blinding my eyes till I can see
Please dear, answer to my pleas
I'll do whatever it takes to set you free
that was just random thoughts
ok, maybe not so random
i write that down well, after what i experienced.
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6:48 AM
Racial harmony day today!
Wells, I came to sch quite late.
Then go change. I fit into sum's Punjabi just nice ok!
Then haha. so malu. At first cannot zip ok. Yikes.
Then. Ahah. They were all squeezed into the big cubicle! xD
Hee. Then came out of class that time, saw them and its like so !!! haha.
Pretty ladies.
Anyways, concert and all were a bit too short. Haha. siti and I er. Did smth 'embarassing'. Sheesh.
Then had lessons as per norm. mrs lau got mad at me for not bringing the jotter book. Like what loser.
I only heard there was no sci and nobody told me anything as I wasn't there for sci yest. So what for i bring also right.
Mly was ohk. Then recess! Haha! I was high! X)
Zan managed to take some far shots at last
She actually went up to them and asked if she could take their pics!
Like wth!! Haha!
Funny, ooh. And farrah damn sexy! Slurps! Haha!
She wore the chi thingy then when she walk that time can she her belly!
Yumms! Hahaha.
They all looked good. =))
Esp honeybun!
Then er. Oh. cme and el. Was boring la.
Mly like again. Tsk.
Ok la. Then blabla. Had csp. Got back ms tan.
And all. Haha. and rab was so fascinated by my 'magic pen'! lol.
Haha. hanna guessed right la..
So today was an okay day except for the fact tht I saw *a SEVEN times!
Yay! Haha. I dunno what else to say now. =/
Byebye.
Honeybun honeybun honeybun! X)
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6:46 AM
The past two days can never be better. =))
Except for this irritating bitch. No, im not referring to shafieqa. Someone who is well..as horrible.
Anyways, I don't rmb much happenin yest just that our damn nice and damn cute csp relief teacher taught us her last lesson! Sad!
Cause I really really like her and the way she teach us and connect with us so well even though we are her first batch of students she ever taught. X(
Oh! and we got nice, cute hello kitty marshmallows from her! =)
Then went to my aunt's house with hanna since she lived only a block away. Hah.
Got ready at my aunt's house and all.
Then went there and gosh! So many ppl!
Had to wait for so looong just to get to enter. More than an hour like that.
Anyways, we finally got in and we were lucky and got the seats at the balcony and right at the front! Woohoo! Clear view some more!!
Then the Singapore Idol performances were awesome, just that this week, all of them sang horribly.
And it was fun all in all. Was kept entertained and I keep shouting! Yay!
Haha! then you know jon actually waved at us!! xD
So damn happy. Then got this bunch of girls also who totally loves him too.
And the one im closest to is reesha and good thing is, she's 14! Yay!
Hahaha. Im going nuts. =/
Anyways, then went home and dad picked us up. It had been a truly fantastic experience for me. =)))
Then today reached class at 6.40! damn early haha. cause have to complete all the uncompleted homework that I didn't even touch last night.
Managed to finish most of it.
Mly was kinda fun, had to design this clothing! Hah! I love!!
So me, hanna and mira had some wacky and um STRANGE ideas. Hahaha.
Then uh. Oh recess.
The macaroni was disgusting man. Eew.
Hist was ok and all.
Spent library period in the library. Think they were there ok!
Damn. Think they were upstairs. Heh. Siti was loud.
Then went for angklung rehearsal for aad.
Was ok
Hah.
I have nth more to say I guess. Ahhs.
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6:44 AM
Thursday, July 20, 2006
to find peace in someone you hardly know,
its wonderful
to be able to cherish every moment you have in life,
its wonderful
to love someone so much with all your heart,
its wonderful
to give all your have and do not mind sacrificing anything,
its wonderful
and to see your loved ones smile so much each day
ITS WONDERFUL =)
its a diff thing...
its wonderful how the world goes round each day and time passes so quickly that you didnt realize that it is alr reaching the end of the year
im gonna be sad i swear
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6:38 AM
The past two days can never be better. =))
Except for this irritating bitch. No, im not referring to shafieqa. Someone who is well..as horrible.
Anyways, I don't rmb much happenin yest just that our damn nice and damn cute csp relief teacher taught us her last lesson! Sad!
Cause I really really like her and the way she teach us and connect with us so well even though we are her first batch of students she ever taught. X(
Oh! and we got nice, cute hello kitty marshmallows from her! =)
Then went to my aunt's house with hanna since she lived only a block away. Hah.
Got ready at my aunt's house and all.
Then went there and gosh! So many ppl!
Had to wait for so looong just to get to enter. More than an hour like that.
Anyways, we finally got in and we were lucky and got the seats at the balcony and right at the front! Woohoo! Clear view some more!!
Then the Singapore Idol performances were awesome, just that this week, all of them sang horribly.
And it was fun all in all. Was kept entertained and I keep shouting! Yay!
Haha! then you know jon actually waved at us!! xD
So damn happy. Then got this bunch of girls also who totally loves him too.
And the one im closest to is reesha and good thing is, she's 14! Yay!
Hahaha. Im going nuts. =/
Anyways, then went home and dad picked us up. It had been a truly fantastic experience for me. =)))
Then today reached class at 6.40! damn early haha. cause have to complete all the uncompleted homework that I didn't even touch last night.
Managed to finish most of it.
Mly was kinda fun, had to design this clothing! Hah! I love!!
So me, hanna and mira had some wacky and um STRANGE ideas. Hahaha.
Then uh. Oh recess.
The macaroni was disgusting man. Eew.
Hist was ok and all.
Spent library period in the library. Think they were there ok!
Damn. Think they were upstairs. Heh. Siti was loud.
Then went for angklung rehearsal for aad.
Was ok
Hah.
I have nth more to say I guess. Ahhs.
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6:35 AM
Today was a super unexpected day I must say.
Sch I came very early (for me that is) reached class around 6.50 like that.
Then did my hmwk cause I didn't do anth the previous night.
Then uh. Oh ya. Mass run! Gosh!
I could have totally DIED at the last part there ok!
Cause *a was going like "may..." cause May was shouting at them to run and not to walk or smth.
Then she said it again, but this time in a much cuter way. She was like going "May...!" in this super cute way! hahah!
So cute so cute!!! Gagagaga!!
Haha, finally I see the cute side of *a. sheesh.
Anyways, had mly after that and I told siti what happened la.
Then math was ei. So so la.
Recess was ok. Basically, the rest of the day was ok.
Dnt, cs, assembly.
It was after sch that it all began.
I finally decided to accompany the two PRINCESSES for their touch rugby after much persuasion and begging. Haha.
But it was fun! Was very nice ok. We played smth like captains ball but following the touch rugby's rules.
Was exhausted by the end of it and the 3 of us had a nice chat with samat. =))
Talked abt sch la then we suggested instead of making the detention girls do cleaning, we should either bring them to an old folk's home and they must bring something at least for the old folks. Or they would be brought to the prison for a 'tour' and show them the consequences if later on in life they do not obey Sinagpore's rules. OR lock them up in a cell, got no window, food, entertain (includes phones, books, mp3 or whatsoever) or anything, just them inside the cell, and lock them up for 2 hours!!! Haha! so evil right I know. Hee.
Ohoh! And dada got a new phone! Haha
And I can tell she's happy =))
She got the phone that I nearly bought the other time, the slim Motorola one and its PINK!! AHH!!
Unfairness pls! hmph. Hah.
Then when we reached redhill there right, we saw this boy fell la.
So horrible. Then I thought it was nth so we just walked on.
But I realized he wasn't standing up and seemed to be crying.
So we went to him, gave him tissue and all.
Haha! imagine, the 3 of us helping him. So funny.
And he's a GUY somemore. Arnd our age too. from Myanmar according to zan from his accent.
Then dada was the 'motherly' one who helped clean his wound and all. (aww..so sweet right?? Haha!)
And I was the one providing the tissue, plaster and phone. (for him to call A LOT of ppl just to solve the prob. Cause he was on his way home. He was running after the bus when he fell.)
And I tell you, YUCKS. The wound was damn gruesome ok and it wont stop bleeding. Poor guy.
And his hands and legs were all injured and stuff la. Pity him loads.
He couldn't even walk properly, luckily got this nice Indian man come and help us too.
He flagged for him a taxi. (the guy had not enough money for the cab ride though)
Then he sent him home and all. Very nice right our 'story'? haha.
But I really hope he is well now.
Zan said, 'if you were him, then 3 girls just suddenly come up and help you, how would you feel??'
Haha! explains a lot why he kept mumbling and didn't look up at us.
Shush. I even saw him crying! Poor thang.
Ok. So I've done that, which is all of us were supp to write our thoughts of what happened and all and the incident itself in our diary/journal/blog.
Just that my job now is to call up on him and ask how he is doing and update the news to zan and dada. Lol. I bet dada would be waiting for my news right now. Hahaha!
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6:29 AM
I wanted to tell Rachel the funny (amusing rather) izwan incident the other day but have no time. So here it is darls. Haha. sorry I don't talk to you much nowadays. Damn busy liao.
I cant rmb exactly how it went, but im very sure it was smth like this. I rmb some silly stupid phrases though! heh.
Oh. and Ashley, for you to read too. =)))
Izwan: (he was sweet-talking...blablabla...)
Me: (after a while...) are you gonna tell me what you told my jnr, Ashley, too?
Izwan: what?
Me: that your parents just divorced the other day,you so depressed, and if I don't let you woo me you're gonna knock your head on the wall or take an overdose of pills?
Izwan: well, if that's what you guys choose to think of me...I have nothing else to say.
Me: ( I forgot what I said after that la)
Izwan: what type of guys do you go for?
Me: oh. I go for rich guys then can always pamper me, HANDSOME ONES ( I emphasized on this fact! Haha), and of course must be clever too cause later if I cheat on him also he dunno.
Izwan: I knew it...
Me: what?
Izwan: that you're those kind of materialistic girls. I can tell alr from the way you talk...
Me: WHATEVER
Izwan: I know all the girls from crescent very pretty (pukes!), smart, rich...not like me...im so poor, I was in normal tech and im so ugly (hah! So he does know that after all!)
PUKES! HAHA! no shame guy one! So yucks! Anyways, ya. That was the rough convo that went on. You get the idea. Yes yes! I so agree with Ashley and Rachel! So despoo!!! And ewwwww!!!!!! Hahahaha!! damn disgusting. But no, there's still one more bitch out there is more disgusting than him..grins.
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6:16 AM
I just started my post about that stupid bitch but I just realized its not worth it wasting my effort and space on my blog abt her. So I deleted everything. Damn her. Hahahaha.
I went home and showed this face to my mum. And she knew that instant why im making that face, IM BROKE! HAHA. so, she agreed for a 'refund'. Heee.
Shall start off porperly. Mom woke me up late. =/ or rather because my alarm didn't ring like how stupid pls. then go sch like norm blabla.
Mly test was horrid la I tell you. X( moreover, I didn't study. Or rather, I forgot abt it and wanted to study on the way to sch but realized I left my book at home. Shows how silly I am.
Then had recess finally sum got her pattaya rice (or howver you spell it). haha very funny ok that woman. Then er. Had art did nth much. Cause got no teacher. I went blog-hopping and yea. Saw the stupid tags. Like how stupid and bimbotic can a 14 yr old be? There's only one in this world, SHAFIEQA.
Anyways, shant go on bout her. Irritating. Sci lau released us late. So ya.
Me and sum got out of sch late, and had to wait so friggin long for the 111 bus! By the time we reached cine, the movie alr started. How stupiiiddd.
Watched pirates of the Caribbean damn nice ok!! Johnny Depp or however you spell his name is so !!!!!
Haha. but last part there so irritating. I had to pee and I didn't want to go alone and it was the exciting part some more! So I finally went with sum and yikes. The toilet was so scary, the lights kept flickering ok!! And when it flickered it makes this scary funny sound. =/
Then er. Went to look for sum's pouch but cant find cheap ones all the nice ones are like above ten bucks. And we were so damn broke! Haha.
Then finally, so tired we went home. So silly I was ranting on and on to sum of like how last time I met this person there. And I showed her the exact spot and all and the exact route we took. Lol. But we so stupid. We took the one towards jurong east instead of the one towards marina bay. Haha.
So had to go a looong way.
I don't care what ppl wanna think bout me.
I have my loved ones arnd me and that’s all that matters to me at the moment.
I will cherish you, don't worry.
I've learnt a horrible lesson after this incident.
And thanks everyone, again.
Bernice! I want 2 hr-long talks with you agn! Hahaha!
Thanks for keeping me entertained and cheering me up! <333
Ok. I was just reading through all my convo history with all those online ppl.
Then the ones with all the strangers , be it guys or girls, who added me online was very amusing. The guys ask the same question:
Guy: are you attached?/do you have a bf?
Me: no
Guy: why?
Me: I don't want lor. Im lesbian you dunno ah.
Hahha! Then everytime I said that right, they all stop harassing alr how cool! Hehh. Girls you all can go use that method. =)))
Then can you believe it, everytime I chat with these ppl, I always, and I mean ALWAYS, rant on about my current eyecandies. HAHA!
And I would be complaining bout my eyecandies this and that most of the time to them! haha. so funny. When I don't even know them or anth. =/
Gosh. Now when I look back, I think they must have thought I was crazy.
Ohwells. Haha. im off to complete my mountain-high pile of homework.
Tata. *sweet kisses~*
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6:13 AM
Saturday, July 15, 2006
I cant believe like the very instant, I just deleted the WHOLE folder.
And there's like arnd more then 300 pics inside sucha waste of time man.
Nevermind. Shall not talk about it. I can only accept what happened graciously cause I know it is god's retribution for what I had done before.
Today started out pretty fine in the early morn. It was cold.
And reached class, alr expected bern and yj to be there. They were being nice about it. =) thanks.
And assembly...shant go on. So horrid they kept pulling me towards you-know-who and you-know-who2. (their names are too disgusting to be mentioned..) cause they thought..(i dunno how to go on). anyways, I've told the goners not to ever mention the you-know-whos names, their class, or anth tt has got to do with them or I'll be very pissed and you know what happens when I get SUPER PISSED OFF.
Then had mass run. Of course, I ran very fast to vent off anger.
Wasn't surprising.
The day went on boringly(?)..mly was tiresome.
Had to go from one place to another, JUST TO GET CONNECTED TO THE STUPID SCHOOL'S WIRELESS.
And sci was so so. It began raining then.
At least sab is happier today and that's good.
Recess was YUCK. Did I tell you I almost puked?
Oh! we had "get to know you" session with mrs wong.
Was kinda fun. Its very nice cause you can just let all your feelings and troubles out without worry in front of the other six, which is mei, jing li, zan, sum, joyce and dada.
It was a very enriching one. =)
My first one was about what is the thing that you don't like about yourself or smth I cant rmb. I said, bottling up my feelings and just burst and break down suddenly after bottling it up. And she gave me really cool advices.
Second one was if I were a teacher, what subj would I teach.
I said mly, of course cause its one of my strongest subj and also because crescent's mly standard is dropping super low. And she says she will be expecting me back in a few yrs down the road as a mly teacher in crescent. Haha. third one was on whether I am a spendthrift or not. I said, not sure, cause when you look at my situation, yes. I only buy what I feel is necessary for me and saves the rest. I do pamper myself once in a while though. but then, when I saves up my money, the money always goes to buying my friends birthday gifts or just whatever gifts I feel like giving them for fun and for no apparent reason. So till now, I still dunno the ans to that. =/
I cant rmb much else that happens for the rest of the day.
There was no csp so accompanied sum to jp to get her pencilbox. Haha. her fifth one for the yr. anyways, she is very fickle minded so walked arnd a lot and finally decided on this pretttyyy black one. =))
Then went home and all.
Anyways, thanks to everyone who had been nice to me. Yj, bern, of course for trying to help me (though I refused) and cheering me up. Siti, for lending me a listening ear, sab for making me feel better and of course to the rest of the gang who is very understanding about it and did not hold anything against me for my bad mood even though they were not at fault. Ohs! And thanks to has and hanna for teaching me to ----! Hee. =p
Im off to do more meaningful stuff.
Im sorry yj but now im not up to the idea.
Hope you understand. Thanks.
My wallpaper leaves me too much sad memories
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12:40 AM
Thursday, July 13, 2006
i dunno what to say
or what to do next
im so confused.
shit
why must this happen now of all times
anyways, i will still be a strong girl as before dont worry ppl..=)
you dont have to fake it
dont have to fake it to make me happy
im so disappointed
not cause you hate me,
cause you're lying to yourself
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6:58 AM
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
im happy!
hahah!
cause wai teng jie is the PRESIDENT!
and vice president is CARREN!!
yayayay!!
haha
im like so happy happy pls! hee
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7:00 AM
'It seems that you're just like a star beside me,
So beautiful and close
Each night I stare in the sky at you
Hoping to at least touch your glow
But when I tried to reach
My fingers never seem to meet your ends
Everyday I pray that you will fall right beside me
Then I can be happy always
So I kept on waiting
And waiting
And waiting
At last I gave up hope
Cause I know that no matter how hard I try
These little fingers of mine can never bring you down to earth
And all these while it was nothing but just an impossible dream
A dream that I will cherish forever...'
Ok. That was just some random thoughts. Look at the meaning behind it.
Look at it closely.
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6:32 AM
Yest was--- no comments
The day started off horrid cause on the way to sch I suddenly had leg cramp. Damn horrible. Last night I had one too.
Then had to cab and waste my time and money and I had no time to revise for math test. =(
Then reached sch, had mass run. Damn stupid pls. it was soooo dark one moment and so bright and sunny the next! What nonsense pls!
Then aft that, had slight leg cramp agn. Urgh.
Had mly and everyone got scolding from kartinie but its ok la since we are really slacking and it has been a long time since she gave us such lectures.
Math test was ok la. Choy's paper is not as hard as mrs lim's.
Recess was bleh. Thought we had the same recess as 4s2 ok.
Then had dnt. Was ok. Haha. the drawing was fun but difficult.
Had 'practical' but I was just starting on my design. Heh.
Then uh. Oh! had cs was not bad. Hahaha! I got everyone addicted to play billiard! xD
Feixin was playing quite a lot of rounds on my tablet. Hee.
And smth interesting happened.
Me, sum and mei stayed back in the lab to install the programs into our tpc, it was taking a long a long time la.
Then I was bored and mei kept us amused. Hee. Inside joke.
Anyways, I was bored again after that and jean went out to get her lunch.
At that time, I was thinking of Hanizah and farrah la. Hee. Secret..
Then while I was thinking thinking, suddenly I dunno why but I just turned around and I saw them outside at the parade square playing with a ball! Haha!
Like very weird can. Mind connection that zan was talking about. Hahh.
Oh. and now im called 'the fish woman' by zan just cause in every meal I would choose to take fish over chix. Just cause she don't like fish!
Then journal writing time choy didn't come so had free time. Haha
Duh of course I was playing billiard la im like so addicted to it now pls.
Then afters, went to zhenghua with siti cause got open house.
Was !!!. I dunno how to say. Reached there early and the school is way bigger and nicer now la but I still don't like it. Love the old one better. I dunno why.
Saw some of my beloved jnrs!
Then met farah and aishah and gosh! Their scream can make you deaf pls!
Aisha looked so damn diff and farah is so cute and diff too in her short uh. Poodle-like hairstyle? Haha.
Then walked around and I cant believe farah is still so obsessed with band!
Met the 6p ppl. Pathetic. Only around 10 came.
Then was happy la to see them. fun juin so sexy and pretty now!
And uh. Wan xuan ar.. I shant talk about her la. So damn dao alr.
And I saw her whispering whispering to hui yi and looking looking at siti and i. oh pls. and all the time she will give me this look and.. ok. I shant go on. And we were even best friends last time ok! Sighh.
6p guys are definitely growing taller. Oh maybe not wei sheng! HAHA!
Ooh. And I suddenly they all were like saying 'faezul so hot and cute now!!'
And I look look everwhere, go around the sch a lot of times still nvr see him. How unfair pls! I also need to see cute guys once in a while ok! Lol.
Then arnd 5 plus went home damn tired pls.
And im lazy to walk so I took bus with siti to senja and take lrt there. Heh.
And I found out smth from yj and bern!
The tablet tt the sec1s are gonna get are like much cooler pls!
They found out from the ta ppl.
The tablet right, if you wanna log in, you just need to put your finger on it then can log in! like how cool pls!
Then if you wanna charge, there will be a small place in sch where you just put your tablet in and it will charge by itself!! Like unfair!
No trouble of bringing your charger to sch and no need to fold fold the wires! Hmph!
Then today started off horrible.
Gahhs. Got this one lrt spoilt so the whole system was stopped.
So stupid! Then farrah was in the lrt also at jelapang.
Then poor her found out she walked all the way from jelapang to Bukit panjang station! Haha!
Met at bpp taxi stand there but stupid got no taxi except for those on call.
So called my dad to send us and he was so late!
Picked us up at 7.10 only! When the crescentians in sch are alr goin for assembly. =/
Was late la duh and so scared.
But lucky ah! The councilors never demerit us or even ask! Phew.
Hee.anyways... ok. I wont comment for now.
Then had lesson and all and I don't rmb much bout what happened during the rest of the day. Haha. hee.
Only can rmb the morn incident.
Then after sch had remedial and found out got no csp after that!! Heee.
So went home.
But damn la! Siti went home by bus and I actually thought bout taking the bus with her, aida and sab too but I just rmb I haven't topped up my ez-link card! Urgh.
Haha. cause *a was inside the same bus too!! Bleh..
Anyways, I made a SIGNIFICANT improvement in my sms last month! Haha
Only 700 plus from a thousand plus! Heehee.
Oh! and the funny funny ccc joke! Lol!
Haha! goners, you all are so sickkk!!!!
xHANISAHx
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6:24 AM
Monday, July 10, 2006
haha
told siti who *a is! sheeesh
you better not tell anyone ok or i'll strangle you!
and tag la whenever you come to my blog the tagboard so empty
lol
im off now to play billiard with hanna!
that woman lie ok!
say she dunno how to play but keep winning!
i nvr win at all!
hmph
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5:51 AM
Friday, July 07, 2006
i dont care what ppl wanna think
i dont care what they wanna say
its just the way i am,
and you know you cant change it
i love *a
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8:24 PM
haha!
sci lab lessons makes us HIGH!
no, mistake.
sci lab lessons makes SAB and NIKI high!
haha. i dunno what else to blog about
good news! now im a happy girl! x) haha
random man.
anyways, i still think *a is THE BEST! =D
no one can snatch *a away from me and i mean it___
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8:21 PM
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
im so ultra sad now i cant even say it into words
sigh
whats up with me
im so stupid
dumb.
i wanna cry but i have to hold back all the tears that i have been keeping inside of me and be a strong strong girl =)
im sad come rescue me powerpuff girls =(
i want buttercup to protect me
bubbles to lend me her cute soft toy to cry on
and blossom to cheer me up =(
im sadsadsad
i dunno what else to say but SAD.
im so sad! =(
arrrrggghhhhhh!
IM SAD!
someone kill me x(
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6:26 AM
hello. im feeling so shitty right now. gahhhhhh
im sad. sam's sad.
its such a sad sad world. =(((
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6:10 AM
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
currently doing nth much and chatting with bern online
i officially declare that hanizah is the stupidest girl on earth i've ever met! hmph!
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5:53 AM
Sunday, July 02, 2006
im feeling so blah nowadays. stupid.
anyways, i was just deleting all my inbox messages in my phone which i havent done so for the past 3 weeks. =/
then i came across the funny convo that i had with *a.
haha. LOL. its like so funny! lemme quote.
*a: Eh come my class lei i got letter give you
me: ah. nanti assembly ah.
*a: okay mesti ambil ah
me: kalau ingat ah. hah.
later.................
*a: wei lu tak ambik lu punye surat!
me: haha. tadi tak de assembly pe. lain kali lah. kenape mcm tk sabar nk kasi ah. hah
*a: Eh berat tau surat lu! jadi baik cepat cepat ambil.
me: haha. baru brape je. ah. ye lah. besok kau nyer reces pkl brape?
*a: tak tau eh.besok aku check...(goes on in el)...haha.i give up messaging in malay.haha
me: ok. haha. tak blh. kene ckp mly nanti oral fail ah! eh. kalau pergi online bilang tau. nak anta bende.
*a: yeah ok.hantar tau eh.mesti tidak nice punye.eh but lu punye melayu karat sia
me: haha. ape je. kau nye lagi terok ah! heh. tak la. bukan lagu. video gitu la. ade jugak la lagu.
*a: video ape.lucah punye ah.haha.aku punye melayu super ah!
me: banyak la tu. haha. ape je! aku tk kotor macam kau ah! lol. ah! kau nyer pasal ah skarang aku DEPRESSED! ahhh!!! *cekik*
*a: then lu mau cekik gua right?! pergi mampus lah! haha.
haha!!! if you understand mly, you'll understand whats so funny.
firstly, we never talked/text in mly before cause our mly is like horrible.
secondly, the way she speaks mly is so funny and weird and she adds el words in her sentences. haha!
and the convo adds to the humour. lol.
ok. im off now. tata =)))
*a!
xHANISAHx
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11:01 PM
i realized I have been reading more and more of hannah's blog. Hah.
Her blog is very nice to read. =)
Anyways, I have a few points I wanna say in this post.
Firstly, I just realized too (like joyce) that I dont really treasure friendships.
Ok. I do treasure friendships but not so much.
Cause what I realize bout myself, I tend to treasure people who I am very afraid of losing, people who I am not very close to. And it scares me.
And I have this mindset that the people who I am already very close with wont leave me and will always be there for me. But I know im wrong.
It was already proven. But I am naturally slow and just realized this fact.
I hate myself for this man.
From now on, I will really treasure my close friends, joyce, zan, sum, dada.
I will try my best not to be the way I used to be, a selfish person. I'll try.
Next, I used to be unsure of what I wanna become in the future.
But after reading "journey of hope", I knew exactly what I wanna do when I grow up.
i know its everyone's wish to do well in studies, go to the university and get a good job, live a good life.
I want that too of course. But I know its being selfish.
Millions of people out there are starving to death everyday.
I know, I cant make all the difference in the world but I will try to make as much difference to as many people's life as possible.
I've made up my mind. Hopefully, I'll be able to join the mercy relief when im in my twenties.
But first, I must get a good job so that I have my own money to travel to Africa, have loads of money to donate, get health supplies and medications. And of course, the most impt one, food.
This really motivates me to work very hard in my studies and I think its somehow working. =)
I'll try my best. I don't want to waste my precious years in this city full of greed and selfishness.
I don't understand how people out there who are fortunate enough but still not satisfied.
What more can God give you than his love? =)
Shelter and food are just the blessings that he gave us.
I read this on hannah's blog and yes. God only needs to give us only bread for us to live through each day. We don't need more.
And we should feel blessed enough that we have comfortable shelter for us, nice and abundant food for us to eat, education for us so that we can have a brighter future. Also, most of us are lucky enough to own vehicles for us to travel around.
Yet, many are still asking for more. Does it make sense?
Lastly, I don't know whats happening to my faith.
It is really over-whelming.
I know I have a strong belief but I feel like my faith is still not fully there yet.
If it was, I wouldn't have succumbed to slitting my wrists when times gets tough. (But that was last time. Its over now.)
I wouldn't have lost faith when I see no hope, start crying and giving up when things are too upsetting or tough to handle.
And I wouldn't have...nevermind.
Point is for now, I don't know what is happening to me.
I cant control it, it just happens. I know its not true.
Or rather, its what I think. I THINK IT IS NOT TRUE.
YOU'RE JUST MY GOOD FRIEND. Nothing more.
God, please lead me to the truth and bring me back to the right path and strong faith. God, please help me. Im counting on you...
GOSH! Anyways, I just found out that yes, my latest post, the *a person I was talking about, I just realized how darn obvious that person it is! Gasp. Cause yes, I have mentioned *a's name a few times in the previous post. Ohwells. I have told *a about it. But I dunno if *a thinks it is just a joke or what. No. I cant spoil our friendship. Never. So I have to act and do something now. But what should I do??
Im screwed. =/
straight is currently not the word for me. =(
im off to try and do something.
xHANISAHx
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10:57 PM
Church;